Thursday, June 25, 2009

thoughts

for awhile now....i had wanted to start bloggin....but somtin always came up(not important stuff)....just stuff.i woke up this morning....n to b honest...just wntd to sleep 4ver(yea i knw...depressin shit)....4 d record....der r gonna b alot of curse words in my blog(i dnt believ der is a certain kind of language to b used...so yea...fuck it..lol)
i woke up thinkin of my purpose on earth is for.really....think abot it...r we here cos our parents got cosy 1 evenin(or mornin...der is rily no certain tym to get cosy).....or is der som other reason...som higher callin...that we r supposed to discover??i think abot my life evryday....n i try to picture myslf 10yrs 4rm now....where exactly do i see myslf?i realized i think alot...i think abot evrytin...life,love,money,sex,politics,evrytin...i think abot human behaviour...how people behave...i think abot my family....my relationship with my father...i think abot evry lil detail....analyze evry situation...no matter how small or irrelvant....tats all i do...think.
sometimes i think wayy too much 4 my own gud....but still i think...i hav tis incredible ability to love people...inregardless of wat dey do to me...it makes me feel weak...vulnerable...but still i do it...people insult me cos of it....but still....
every1 deserves to b happy....evrybody deserves a lil love evry now a then...evry1 needs som1 who cn endure der shouts....der insults....der moods....2day micheal jackson died....say wat u want....but tat guy was a great man....a wonderful individual...evn if he enjoyed playin wit kids...(d guy was a freak...big whop...luk @ r.kelly pissin on a 13yr old...at least he was more tender)this man loved people.....he gav soo much to d society....n evry1 aways seems to 4get tat....sad isnt it??d man was hated n abused by so many but changed billion of peoples lives....y r we humans so evil??we hav all done som rily terrible things....(yes...u have...) n to b honest alot of us dont deserve som of d gud tins we hav in our lives...but still we hav them...n we still tak them 4 granted...FUCK!!
i try to appreciate evry gud tin in my lyf....1ce in awhile i let my father know...evn though we r nt cool.....tat i appreciate his influence in my lyf....im thankful 4 my friends...im grateful 4 d people who love me(evn tho they r few)....
try to think abot wat u nid to b grateful for.....n stop bein so fuckin ignorant.

7 comments:

  1. Okay so I stopped blogging coz i lacked motivation but this is nice, I think i'll start again, Welcome bruv

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  2. Do you know wat is funny 'cous', we are just alike. We appreciate stuff to the last detail and never look down on people. We give people a second chance because we know nobody is perfect. Sometimes i wonder if people see what i see, that what we are lacking is the ability to love one another. But the world is crazy....
    Hey hit me up mehn. Your cousin Tunde savage

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  3. gooooon lol
    love ya still. .. cos u're soo sweet.

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  4. You know i don't read but i actually read everything.. and it touched me :-( t lol
    I wanted to hug you but you weren't here.. kmt..

    <3

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  5. nice post. you may want to reduce the number of ellipses in the post.
    i'm a thinker too. i would have given you the link to my blog but that'll be something i hate doing - advertising.

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  6. yeah just contact me for some expo

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